07-28-24

Kind of personal today, sorry :p

Guess who's working on their website instead of making good, responsible decisions? It's ya boi!

I've had the past two weeks off of work due to mental health reasons, and I'm putting off tomorrow by staying awake and staying distracted. If I don't sleep, then it will never be tomorrow, and I won't have to go back to work or something.

The whole problem was that work stress was greatly worsening my mental health to a medically serious degree, so time away has been amazing and healing. But now I'm worried that going back will just put me right back into the thick of it, and it will all have been for naught. And that it will be even worse, somehow, because I'll have to do a lot of catching up.

Ugh, I just want to be able to be a normal human person and function while holding down a job, rather than the hot mess things have been so far. I've been working for like 15 years now, I just want a break, you know?

Like, give me a break or give me working brain chemicals, don't deprive me of both.

lol life is hard